Today's memory is not one about my family or a great vacation. It is about something that I re-learned recently that I want to record so that I can remember it for the future.
When I found out back in May that I wasn't going to be teaching seminary anymore, I was not happy about it. At all. I loved teaching seminary. I loved being with the kids every morning. I loved the study I got to do every single day in order to be prepared to teach the kids. I did not love getting up at 4:45 am every morning, but that sacrifice was small in comparison to all the blessings I received.
I prayed a lot. I told Heavenly Father how I felt. I asked Him if there wasn't some way I could keep teaching seminary. The answer I got was, "No."
That was hard for a couple of weeks. Then one Sunday I received a very peaceful feeling that everything was going to be fine and I was okay with the change. Still sad, but okay.
A couple of months later it became apparent that I needed to go back to work part-time in John's office for a semester. Yes, we are fine. But we weren't sure how long our Arizona house was going to be empty between renters, which meant double house payments and double utilities during the most expensive time of the year, and with two of us in college, Parker to go to college in the Fall, Parker to leave on his mission in 18 months, and some uncertainties about our bonus for this year..... it all began to add up. And it was a little bit scary. We decided it would be best to be proactive in this situation.
Here's where the lesson on faith and Heavenly Father's plan comes in.
He knew what was going to happen. He knew that it would be very, very difficult for me to teach seminary, and work 30 hours a week, and continue with my college classes (only one this semester), and be the kind of wife and mom I want to be.
That was one huge light bulb moment.
And I was so thankful. And I was reminded, once again, that He always knows what's going to happen.
My "job" is to have faith in His plan, because He knows much better than I do what is best for me. His view is much wider than my narrow, earthly one.
His view is eternal.
And even though it's been a very busy semester with working, subbing in seminary for 5 weeks while our new teacher was in Korea, serving with the Young Women, an English class, and being a wife and mom, I know it's the way it's supposed to be.
And because I know it's the way it's supposed to be, I've been able to handle everything, with His help, of course. I have seen tender mercies all along the way.
And that has been such a blessing.
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